friend

Helloooo, I know it has been a while but guess who's back?

(p/s I'm jamming to 1d's Take Me Home while writing this)

Okay so back to business. 

Friend.

What is a friend?

Well, to be exact, what is your definition of a friend?

Friends are people who have always been there for you (besides family of course), through thick or thin. Be there when you're facing problems with your family, when you had a fight with your housemates, when you had your first heartbreak, when you fail in your test and when you think you've lost your faith in life. 

Indeed, that are what friends are for. But also, a friend must lead you to a better life. For example, a friend must tell you that if you're doing it wrong and help you fix them. In my opinion, its not a big deal but things will get complicated when that one friend thought that you have been secretly judging them. 

I'm saying this because it happened to me once and I still haven't make up with that one friend of mine (well was a friend). So, me and Jiji (not her real name though) were team for all assignment tasks and we're in the same class for all subjects (pls note that we get to choose which class we wanted in). We were so close that we were never really apart but we don't live in the same house. Thank god cause I'd prefer it that way for some reasons. Okay so the thing is she always do her assignments last minute which gets to my nerves cause I don't like to stressed so much when we're near the deadline. 

Honestly, I let it be for the whole semester (a semester = 5 months) cause I thought I could coop with it but I just can't anymore. I told her so many time to always get her part of the assignments done earlier but she still *sigh* do it. And there's this one time where she completed her part at 11.30pm and we gotta present that report at 8am the next morning. It was too late that I'm too tired to recheck what she had done so I just let it just the way she wrote it. The next morning, in class, the lecturer was so mad that the Introduction was so full of bullshit I don't even understand so I get why the lecturer was so freaking angry. Jiji were in charge in making the introduction and guess what she did when the lecturer was trying to asking us what the introduction was all about. DON'T EXPECT ME TO KNOW CAUSE IT AIN'T MY PART. So, I thought she would explain it to the lecturer but guess what, she sTAYS SILENT.

God knows how mad I am at the moments when the lecturer kept asking me about that shitty report. She only read the introduction since the intro was already full of bullshit. I wouldn't want to admit that report was mine if I get the chance. I was so mad but I kept it cool and blame it on the lecturer instead (?). I don't even know why I did that. 

Few days later, I tweeted a lot on my twitter. You can say that I'm just ranting or writing my feelings out. I tweeted about how people should never completed their works last minute for the sake of the other members. If its an individual work, then feel free to do so. Think of other members who faced hard time trying to cope with your works. Its fine if the parts were wrote excellently, I'm sorry to say this but when you don't expect your group members to submit your low-quality with so many sentences that even a high school student won't understand. I actually make it public and don't really mentioned her but oh well.

The next thing I know was that she dedicated a post on her facebook saying how I should have help her, told her that she's late bla bla bla with her low english. I don't really care about the english thing but still, make it easier in the words that people can actually understand. You can always write in malay like always but why are you making it complicated? 

Okay so I whatsapp-ed her asking about all this and apologized. She replied it's okay and admitted her mistakes so i thought things will be okay but she won't talk to me. My other friends said that I did what I can to apologized but if she still won't talk to me then, its her problem. And so we haven't talk for like a semester now and I couldn't care less. Just so her know that I'm not even mad at her but oh well.

I'm glad and thankful that I still got 2 other friends and housemate friends to count on so may god bless y'all. 

In conclusion, not all people accept us the way that we are so we should approach them in a way that they can accept. Not all people are the same. Some says, if you're not losing friends, then you're not growing up.

"We don't lose friends, we just learn who the real ones are."

You still have a long way to go, so its fine to make mistakes and learn.

I.x